Do you ever find yourself in a position that you are just sick of yourself?
I am so utterly paranoid I make myself nauseas.
Ok, so, I have said on more then one occasion that I jinx myself so I have kept myself quiet about this for 5 days. Which may not seem like a big deal, but yeah I need to get on with it, annoying myself again.
Monday morning I woke up and I was laying on my stomach. I mean full on, flat on my stomach and I was so comfortable (my normal sleeping position). Naturally, I panicked. I'm not a small person and I am always afraid that I could hurt the baby if I was laying on my stomach which is a no no when you're pregnant anyway. So immediately I rolled over.
Since then I swear movement of the baby has slowed immensely. I do feel an occasional nudge but not like I felt for weeks before hand.
I'm afraid I hurt the baby.
Could the baby of turned so I am not feeling as much movement? Sure
Am I just not feeling the banana size baby? Very possible
Is there any other symptoms of baby in distress? Not that I can tell...still blooming, I can still feel occasional movement, still have pregnancy symptoms.
Am I being paranoid? More then likely
Does it stop me from being worried about this? NOT IN THE LEAST
I know that my experience with the twins has caused me to be a little...ok...a lot more protective and paranoid about the health of my unborn child especially considering how the entire first trimester went.
I'm determined not to utterly freak out about this until I see the baby on the ultrasound next Friday. Yes, I have to wait one more week but unless I find any other symptoms I think that I would look like a psycho paranoid pregnant woman (hello pot, meet kettle) if I took this further with my doctor or at the ER. So I will just have to deal with my paranoia and pray that I am wrong.
Ok, now somebody laugh at me and tell me to chill out, maybe I'll listen!